196! Yay!

OK but today I cheated again. This morning was so promised! Argh... I had a giant cookie at Barnes & Noble. You wouldn't believe the excuses I find - even as I purchased it I was telling myself that I didn't have to eat all of it, etc etc blah blah blah. Grrr... So tomorrow I MUST be back on track! I guess I just can't go anywhere or do anything. I need to stay home and eat my designated items so I can get thin!

And my pants felt tight today too. Waaaa!!

197.1... Easter Ruined Me

and today I was crabby crabby crabby! Started my period too, which could have something to do with my mood but it's worse than it's EVER been!! I'm not usually a big "PMS" crabby person but today I totally was. Some advice on the internet says don't take HCG while aunt flo is here. Lots of postings say people had no problems with it, some people had problems (like lots more days of bleeding) but I don't care - I'm taking it anyways. I really want to continue to drop pounds and not take a break!

Cheating Ruins the Plan... (But I'm 197.8!!!)

OK so if you're wondering, here is what happens when you cheat (i.e. eat something that's not on the list) - the weight loss is less the following morning, and the whole day you feel hungry and tired. So that's what happened two days in a row. I cheated one night - Skal dinner where dinner was breaded chicken breast smothered in sauce and sitting on mashed potatoes. I scraped off as much breading as I could but inevitably ate some as well as a couple bites of mash and a glass of wine. So I could have avoided most of that cheat, but I didn't. The next morning I had lost less than 1 pound and all day I was tired and hungry. I felt undernourished all day and therefore ate more than I should have, thinking it would help. Also went to a wine tasting with the girls and ate thai shrimp soup. Tried to avoid the noodles but there was definitely other stuff in there I wasn't supposed to be eating. So then day 2 of hungry and tired comes.

So last night I went to a comedy show with another set of girls and totally stuck to my guns, except for when Jennie bought me a beer while I was in the bathroom. So I had a few sips and then hid it under my chair. Today I feel much better, but have been licking a little cake batter while making husband's birthday cake - and it's Easter! My sister-in-law is cooking so I'm going to have to eat. I have no idea what it's going to be, but I hope there's a huge salad and some naked protein. I'm bringing eggs to decorate so I could always play with the other food and then later eat an egg.

So anyways... new weight 197.8!!! So that's pretty awesome.

200!! It's official!!

So I'm down to 200! I'm so excited! OK it's 200.1 but that's really really close. I'm sure by tomorrow morning I won't have to see the 2 anymore!

Also, another great breakthrough of today is that all the clean jeans that are size 16 are too big. So I need to go buy a 14 at the Gap today. Might be a bit snug but it sure beats pulling them up all day as I move around.

Yessss.....

201.2 and dropping...

So I never thought I'd think "FINALLY! I'm getting down towards 200!!" I was mortified when I realized I was getting UP towards 200!! But yes, I am now getting DOWN towards 200. My goal? 150!! But I don't think that'll happen this month. At this rate, if I keep it up, I can get to 177. I'd be happy at that weight! But this is going so great that I think I'll do another round of it this summer. Maybe I can get to 150!! Yay!

So here's the update: I had a weird all-night case of hypertension. I don't even know what that word means but it sounds right. I literally couldn't stop moving. I finally had to get out of bed and do some stretches and walk around. That seemed to work, but that was after hours of off and on sleep and twitching. This might not be related to hcg, but thought I'd write it down anyways. It's either related or I need to destress!

I'm patiently waiting for my Nia DVD's to get here! I think I'll do some tonight with my own music and the book for instruction just to get started. I think adding excerise to this diet will keep this momentum going. I didn't do too good yesterday on food so I lost less than a pound (.8 was my decrease this morning). So I need to be more strict! I'm aiming for more than a pound per day!!

Round is a shape but....

Get excited! There's a shape appearing on my body that hasn't been there before! The hormone in the hcg drops is supposed to redistribute fat from the wrong places (where it's stuck and causing me the beginnings of permanent obesity) to the right places (where it can be easily used for backup fuel when needed). And I think it's working! Even my husband said there is definitely an hour-glass shape showing up that wasn't there before. He's super surprised. He was a nay-sayer of this diet so I know he isn't imagining it or humoring me.

AND this morning's weight was 203.5 - another pound down!

Last night we had dinner at a friend's house. I had a tiny dollop of mashed sweet potatoes, but otherwise the dinner fit (except two glasses of red wine ha ha, but it didn't have carbs so I'm good I think).

So I was 150 calories over the 500 calorie limit... but I woke up a pound lighter. So as long as I wake up a pound lighter tomorrow too, then I know I didn't mess up too bad!
;)

204.5 I'm feeling encouraged!

OK it's probably water weight cause I drank a ton of water yesterday and peed all day long. I don't feel thinner. In fact I feel constipated. Actually I AM constipated. I haven't had a bowel movement (hate that word) since the first gorging day. So everything I ate the second gorging day is still in there! Ah! It was a big list! So I guess when that comes out I'll weigh even less.

I went to bed early so I didn't get desperately hungry and not be able to do anything about it. I feel pretty good this morning. I woke up early of course because I went to bed so early. But I feel only a distant feeling of hunger and I've already take one set of drops. I'm going to make some mint tea (supposed to make you feel less hungry) and wait until after 2nd set of drops to eat anything. Less apple-eating today is in my plans. Also, Patsy's Easter party is today so somehow I must resist eating all the stuff she makes. Bacon is not on the list of things I can eat. Argh. But she knows I'm on the diet so I'm sure she will have a suggestion on what to eat.

Dinner was... small

So tonight, dinner on day 1, I had chicken breast (not a whole breast), 5 cold shrimp (no cocktail sauce), asparagus (blanched for 30 seconds, then put in cold water), and tea. I'm still hungry. But I think I'm ok. I'm drinking chamomile tea - the sooner I go to sleep the better!

I think the apple was too much for one day. I might cut up several apples into 8 slices each and then put 6 slices in baggies so that I'm having a little less than one apple per day. I feel like I needed more substance (protein) today but couldn't eat more because of the 500 calorie limit.

Oh and magical energy still has not arrived.

Gorging leads to 207.6 - I'm using this as my starting weight

OK so I completed my two days of gorging while taking the drops. I've already discovered that setting my alarm to every hour and a half is the only way I'm going to remember to take them six times per day. So that's working ok. The directions don't really say when to take them. It just says 6 drops, 6 times per day. Hmmmmm...

SO I ate everything in sight for two days and now today is officially day one of the 28 days - 500 calories of mostly protein each day. I've already had two hard boiled eggs and I'm not sure what to do next. I need to hit costco and get big packs of chicken breasts! I think I'll do that after work. I can have one apple too, but not in the morning. So I have a half hour till I can eat that, if I'm being particular about what is considered morning.

The tons and tons of energy I'm supposed to have hasn't shown up yet. Still waiting for that to happen. I guess I could drink some black coffee or green tea. I think I need to buy some.

Official starting weight this morning was 207.4. SO gorging for two days made me gain weight. But I was warned about that and told it was temporary. So we'll see!

A year has passed - 206.6 this morning

SO a year has passed... and I'm fatter. The 14's are way snug and now the 16's are getting snug too. I had to go buy 16's and they're getting too small! My sister gave me a bunch of pants because she's thinner now. Argh. I hate it.

So here's what I'm doing - the HCG diet in droplet form. There are lots of nay-sayers against this diet - but let's get real people!! How healthy am I? I'm talking mind and body - NOT healthy! Creeping toward heart disease and diabetes! So could any diet really be worse than what I'm doing?? NO!!!!

My sister and step-mom did the diet through a naturopathic doctor. That is what convinced me. So I have the drops (you can get them on the internet) and I'm diving in. One of the motivators, sickeningly, was the fact that I get to spend two days eating as much fat and sugar as possible. So I've taken the drops for the first time this morning (and second dose has already gone by) and I've eaten lots of yummy fattening stuff, including but not limited to a mocha with whip and a chocolate donut from Starbucks. Luckily, the donut wasn't that good so two days from now I don't think I'll have trouble not eating one of those.

Then for the remainder of the 30 days I will be eating 500 calories (let's see those eyebrows raise and chins drop) of no-carb, no-sugar protein. So um... chicken breasts and pork? Not totally sure yet. I'm gonna get with step-mom and sister about what they ate.

Then for the 3 weeks following the 30 days, you don't take the drops but you do stick to no carb. Then slowly reintroduce SOME carbs (only the good kind!) Then I plan to join weight watchers as well to keep off the weight. I need some accountability! Otherwise I'll EAT EAT EAT!!!!